"summer days just sittin' around, but when the sun goes down....

I be ready to party...."

this start of break has been.... eventful. first of all, its feels weird not seeing the CHHS crew on the weekdays... no wesley to get crazy/dumb/hyphy/stupid with, no choir second period, no bball in the gym, and no 7th period (pretty damnn bombb class). but i feel this sense of....no achievement. i didn't do as well as i should have this year, and now i'm stressing about it. and it's summer. lamee. i need to step it up senior year... but there's a lot of good things coming up this summer. like the beginning of my recordings! i'll be making a myspace music profile of all you to see. collabo with jordan carreon (aka G22 music) and augie. it's gonna be dope. spread the word. and ask for a dedication if you want one! i might do it. if you're cool enough. =] still looking for a artist name... i might just go with my first and middle name though... it sounds legit. haha. first session tomorrow!

anyways, i also went through a lot the last couple days... i finally talked to her, told her it just wouldn't work out... i just couldn't see us together... i'm sure she'll find someone better than me... and then, there's another girl, "A" (from my last blog?) i was planning on asking her out next week... my chance to sweep her off her feet. =]] i just hope that she won't be thinking of "H" when she's with me... he's acting shady. she shouldn't be talking to him if he's already talking to 2 other girls. i just wanna make her see that she doesn't need that.... she doesn't need him... if you're reading this, "H", then back off her already. you're my homie, but she doesn't need to get hurt by you. and "A", if you're reading this, then i'll make you forget about him... whatever i need to do. you don't need him.

mirrors.

(Ode to the Girl in the Mirror)

"i believe that in a mirror,
you can see into one's soul...."

If you look hard enough,
and believe with all your mind,
you can see all you desire,
things beautiful and fine.

If you looked deep enough,
you become things you can't be,
when i see you, i see an angel
alluring and carefree

You've left an imprint on my heart,
i know that this is true,
for when i look into this mirror,
i only think of you.